While I Grow Up...

Sitting here all alone in my bedroom... Just my pc, beer and cigarettes is all i have... No plans, no outings, nothing... I really hope these days will be gone soon... It's not what i planed... It's not what i want... These few days i realized that i don't have much friends that can accompany me anymore... They're busy with their life, busy with their family, busy with their partner, busy with their studies... Never felt like this before...

This afternoon while having lunch, met someone whom people called her a fortune teller... Said that what ever i do this year will be not as good as what i think... Guess she's right... A lot of things that i didn't want to happened keeps poppin' out since the first day of this year... If it's true, i hope this year will end as fast as possible but i'm trying to be strong to over come what ever negative stuff that is coming towards me... Maybe i'm just pretending to be... Maybe i'm still weak... I hope that i'll be stroger...

But at least i did something... Trying to learn new stuff, found new friends, keep in touch with my friends that i've abandoned for years... Think back of those mistakes that i've done and try to correct it... Think of those negative stuff that happened on me and the reasons but... Sigh! I guess i'm not a positive thinker that I think I am now...